so. i’ve been on overload for the last few weeks. i mean, filled-to-the-brim-everything-is-so-crazy-all-i-want-to-do-is-sleep o.ver.load. ever since going to new york life has been pretty much going non-stop. family stuff. relationship stuff. work stuff. jesus stuff. it’s just been a lot. and i’ve been over-capacity, in desperate need of alone time. quiet time. time to be still.
so today, i’m home. and it feels oh, so good. i’m working on some things, doing some laundry and unpacking from said trip to new york. i’m working on emails and and addressing my latest newsletter. just wrapping up the week, really.
i traipsed upstairs in my yoga pants to have coffee with allison this afternoon. she’s always real refreshing for me. she asks me the questions i don’t always want to answer but that make me think on things and draw out new, deeper parts of me. she seeks to understand and loves me in the midst of my stuff. i hope i’m a little bit like her when i grow up. except for the part where she hates bacon. i love bacon and would like to eat it forever. thankyouverymuch.
speaking of eating, i need to do that. i haven’t had anything but coffee yet today. oops. but maybe i should have some more coffee? it’s a good, dreary day for lots of coffee.
because i just love coffee. we all know this. but i also love the idea of coffee. because in some weird, twisted way, it’s a cool, trendy thing to drink coffee. like it offers some kind of status in some universe that’s not real but is real. right?
but then i have moments where i don’t want to talk about how much i love coffee because everyone talks about how much they love coffee. i don’t want to be another coffee-drinking, toms-wearing, jesus-loving gal who is so desperately trying to be different that she actually ends up fitting into some kind of mold. there’s something in me that needs to be different. but everyone wants to be different so we end up all being the same kind of different. you know?
hm. that all kind of came from nowhere. maybe it’s also a good day for contemplation.
on that note, i guess i’ll go have some coffee. and maybe some bacon.